My sophomore year ended last week. Summer's just starting and I'm thinking ahead. There are times when my exchange seems so far away. Then it seems so close the next minute. At times, I start to get... nervous? excited? anxious? I'm not sure how I to name it.
It's kind of scary to think I'll be getting just one more school year with my friends. After this year, I'm off to Germany. Then comes college. I can't help but wonder who's going to be there throughout and after. Will the people I consider friends now still be as close as they were before I left? Will people I don't really talk to now become closer to me while I'm gone? Will I meet new people and make new friends in Germany that I can't imagine living without?
Already, I'm noticing differences in some of the people I once considered really good friends. They seem more distant, and that's probably because I didn't get a chance to spend much time with them this year. What does that say about the coming years?
What is it going to be like leaving my family? I know my mom will cry, and her crying will make me cry, but what about the rest? I don't know. I just hope everyone I care about is there to see me off. I think I'd like to be able to say a real final good-bye to them. But who are the people that make up 'them'? I doubt they'll be who I think they'll be at this point in time.
Anyway, that's just some thoughts I had to get out of my head. This is "Jaymee's Germany Journal" afterall, so I should expect to be writing more of this kind of blog post.
Bis später!
